Life Happens

Every time when you leave someone behind or someone decides to quit on you, things don’t remain the same anymore. There is always a change - may be sometimes there is a major change, sometimes this is a minor one which you eventually brush off. All the changes are not bad too.
Whether you miss the people in your life or not , they change you in a certain way and sometimes they come back to you in pieces later in life, may be years after they have gone. Some come back in dreams, some in some unexpected way, others in some place, and some one come back through the occasions or something else.
Life is not s disaster ,sometimes it is a slow torture. It kicks you hard although you are down, may be it kicks you , and bashes you and breaks your bone. But suddenly when the life seems to be unending dark without a single ray of hope and you eventually think that you cannot go any longer and you give up, life takes surprising turn and brings you flowers and heal your wounds to let you stand on your feet . And most importantly it happens once when you just don’t take any ownership of your own and just let go the outcome and go with the flow of life. The situation is nothing new , a lot of persons might have experienced that .

The Recurring Dream

Well so last night I had again the same confounding and disturbing dream. The same dream  kept coming back to me repeatedly after 1-2 month. 
Although it is a recurring dream but every time the pattern is little bit different. It varies every time. :D
The dreams subject is always about failure but may be the causes are different.
Well the dream is that I have an important exam to appear. But every time I just see I am failing in the exam badly.:(
Last day in my dream I just managed to secure a mere 18 out of 100. ( where the passing grade is 40).
Sometimes I experience like I am an HS candidate , have a lot of syllabi to complete , but I have not yet managed to learn the 1/20th.
Sometimes I see myself as a college student and sometimes even as a 10th candidate.
Well the patterns are :-
1. I open the question paper. I read the first question and started freaking out as have never heard anything related to the question too.
2. I went to the exam centre and found out that I was in the wrong test centre much after when I did not have time to go back to the right centre .
3. I missed the exam for noting down the wrong routine.
4. Prepared for another paper instead of the correct one.
5. I had a dream where I  arrived late for an exam, and could not find the location of the exam room . I was lost in the large college building.
6.  And the most common pattern , where I had nothing to answer , I found myself not at all prepared for the exam and was wandering in the dream about what the hell was I doing for the 6 months instead of studying and preparing for the exam ?


So wandering about why so many years after sitting exams at college or school, do I dream about having to sit for one?


May be these stressors, the exam room, the ticking clock, the exam papers…..all these memories lie asleep in our subconscious mind somewhere flooding back to us in a sea of anxiety.
May be we are just not aware of it consciously but in our subconscious mind it is there yet.
Wandering do any other people face this kind of experience ?